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Jul 11

can’t I just pick maybe?

Jul 11

I had the foresight to finally sign up for short term disability at work during open enrollment a few months ago. That is how I planned on being paid (at least partially) during my maternity leave. Because I am lazy, I neglected to fill out and submit the questionnaire until just now. I got an email from HR warning that if I did not do it by this Friday, I would be automatically lose the coverage.

The questionnaire was short and simple. It asked if I went sky diving and scuba diving and whether I’ve been treated for drug addiction or heart disease. But then, towards the bottom, it asked me this:

Are you currently pregnant?

Yes, I’m currently pregnant. My HCG is sky high. If I peed on a stick right now, it would most definitely register a positive. There’s an embryo and a yolk sac in my uterus. I still get sick every morning right before breakfast. My stomach is rounder than it normally is.

But then again, no, I’m not currently pregnant. I’m not bringing home a baby in February. That embryo in my uterus is missing a vitally important thing – a heartbeat. That super high HCG should start decreasing soon until it eventually gets back to zero.

Thanks, stupid enrollment form, for ruining my morning. You’re an asshole.

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